Frustration

I'm feeling very frustrated today. We had our community group last night, and I was enjoying it for the most part, then everything just seemed to bother me. Our group has gotten really big, which is a good thing, but the people who bring food every week don't bring enough for everyone. There were 17 of us last night and we had one casserole dish of pasta, a small salad and one loaf of bread for us all to share. And, the people who were supposed to bring a dessert didn't show up. I never get enough to eat on Wednesday nights, and that is very frustrating. We are having our Christmas party next week. Before Thanksgiving we decided we were going to do 1 white elephant gift and 1 nice $15 gift. Of course, since I'm so prepared I bought it right after we discussed it. Last week we discussed it again and it was changed to a $15 to $20 gift. Then, last night someone felt the need to discuss it again. So it has been changed to no white elephant gift and 2 $10 gifts. One for a guy and one for a girl. My gift was a nice $15 gift set and now I have to go buy 2 more gifts. I don't think it's fair for me to spend more money when you know no one else will. On top of that we have our prayer partner reveal that night and we have to have a $25 gift for them. Then I have a $15 gift for my secret pal at school. I'm not even looking forward to our Christmas party. Then I have my ornament party that Friday. I invited all the girls from my community group. I sent it out a month early before anyone would have plans. Then, I had to ask them in person if they were coming and half of them are now going to different Christmas parties. I just find this to be very frustrating. But, the people who want to be there will be. The less people that come, the nicer food and alcohol I will have! I feel like everyone is focusing on the gifts instead of what really matters. I think I'm going to send an e-mail to our leader and say that instead of buying gifts for each other we should give the $20 as a couple that we were going to spend on gifts and donate it to our church for Toys for Tots, because they still need toys, and it is this weekend. This is what happens when I don't get enough to eat.